Not Your Average Cup of T

I go through life expecting no obstacles and when I come across one, I get colder than a popsicle. I hate confrontation and I hate conflict. This shit is so confusing, and my mind feels so damn tricked. Cuz I never thought that I would come across such problems in life. I wanna cut the shit out with some scissors or a knife. But not in the literal terms, like cutting through my skin. I wanna change the way I am, cuz I hate who I’ve been. This life’s not easy, that’s for sure, and nothing comes for free. But I’ll be okay, just share it with me, we’ll be fine babe, you’ll see. I’ll go long distance, dial it up, from deep, yeah three point range. I don’t want anyone else but you, so please don’t ever change.

Sometimes, I have to realize that I’m trying to be the best I can be. The best possible me. I have to realize that I’m not perfect and that things are going to effect me. I have to remind myself that these things are normal. I don’t know why I’m so insecure, but that’s part of who I am. Do I wish I wasn’t? You can bet your ass I do. I keep telling myself not to worry, not to let it effect me, but I’m not very good at convincing myself. If you feel I’m throwing a pity party, I apologize because it is unintentional. Plain and simple, I’m unusual and I let a lot of things bother me. It may bother other people as well, but insecurities are just bullshit. I wish things didn’t affect me so much. It would make my life a lot easier. Fuck you, insecurity. I hate you

Been a while since I killed it like this :-P

I know you’re hurting and you say you can’t take the pain. But baby be assured there is a rainbow after the rain. These cloudy skies’ll clear up and the sun will shine. And baby girl, that’s the day I’ll make you mine. I will not hurt you, I’ll never neglect you. I promise baby that I’ll always protect you. No matter what, my ride or die, girl, you will be. Our love so deep and true, even acting silly. You have my heart, and I swear that it belongs to you. Without you baby I’d be depressed, I’d be so blue. There’s nothing better than the feeling from within. When I’m with you, baby where do I begin. I mean, how can I describe in words exactly what I feel? I pinch myself at times for assurance that it’s real. That someone like you came after someone like me. Do you like what you got? Do you like what you see? I definitely got lucky, when you came after me. I love you so much, my little Bubby.

-BT